Random thoughts .....

a looking back at 2009 ..

Reading a friend's blog made me come back to mine :) .. and I feel good about it .

Its been a while since I blogged , well n audio blogged . Many things kept me away from blogging , could be my little one or my b"i"tter 1/2 ( nah!!jz joking ..he is too gud , atleast he's putting up with me, which I should appreciate ;o) ) ..anyways .. so where was I ?? Yeah , things that kept me away from blogging ..hmm.. well even if I say n things, it would all reflect only as my laziness or mere excuses ...so lets leave it there .. safe inside my own thoughts ..

I still cannot believe that I am going to be a 2 yr old's Mom soon .. God , time just flies !! I can still remember how excited I was when I first saw my little one yelling at the top of her voice when her tiny Lungs started to expand upon landing to Life :) .. From that day on ..till today is she a blessing or what ?? Ofcourse yes .. but at times ... I feel like a zombie pulling out the remaining hair off the headuuuuuuuu ....like a crazy yahoo smilie ... haaah ... despite all that I love each n every moment spent with her ... Despite the ever-increasing aches n pains post-delivery (only 4 me , God knows Y ?!?!?) and the ever-changing daily activities and priorities , like every Mother I am enjoying "being-a-Mother" wholly .

Life has changed a lot in the past 1 year - relations ,priorities , people around me , me myself and ofcourse the shows that I watch now, to the extend that if taking the remote , my hands automatically does the controls till I go to the Kids section of On Demand .. how strange !!! haah!! Ofcourse, there is one thing that dint happen this year too .. all fault mine :)- my studies & my profession ,where am I ? what am I doing ?

Talking about relations , it was more like a downfall ,like there was a sudden loss of happiness in my world. People whom I considered so close moved away and those who were nt close to me earlier became an inevitable part of my life .I had no idea, how & why it happend, but it did and slowly ,to be frank I loved that change :) . Though it did hurt a bit in the beginning , now I like it this way .. coz if they moved away from me , they may not have been close to me at all from the beginning , I suppose. I like to think that way .. its ok .. me n my thinking .. got problem .. stay away !! Let me live !! :-) ...

I met my best friend and her family on my last trip to India , it's something I would cherish until I meet her again . The times we had .. the talks that we shared were the same , just like how it was years ago . I loved it !! Miss u S .. Times that we spent with our most loved ones are the shortest but the sweetest ... :)..who knows it better than me ..

Something very very very bad happened during that time -the sudden demise of my childhood Buddy 'N' .. We were so close then,that we used to tell our Parents and elders around us that we would get married wen we grow up and I guess thats the sweetness of having a childhood buddy .. there was no like/infatuation nothing , but we liked each others company a lot .. years went by and we once met as teenagers and we were kinda strangers to each other, and it stayed so . And some day my Mother told me that she was going to attend his wedding or so and I felt nothing except a bit upset coz I cud'nt go attend it . May be that would have been the last chance to have seen him too, only if I knew !! And while on a pleasure trip during last India trip, a call from my Mother informed me about his sudden demise leaving behind 2 kids n his loving wife . It was such a shock to me , just dint know how to handle it ,though I knew life was too unpredictable,this was way too much to be digested . But then again ,its not in our hands. That made me realize the uncertainty in life's promises .And so when few of my good friends ( as I thought ) moved away , I let it happen , coz its their wish n their life , n their choice .. if they have problem with me, its theirs , not mine . Glad they did !! I learnt that at times you have to just let go ... so plz goooo .. :) ..

Visited my family in Philly , I wanted Irene to spend some quality time with her Uncle n Aunt and I'm glad she did :). Met my best'est' friend Sush and spent some good time with her darling baby and the best part was that reen n my friend's son became friends instantly, hmm ..that was such a surprise to both of us .And we were haaaaapppyyyyyyyy :) . It was a much awaited break that we( si& me)finally got .. was nice !! Some 'us' time for us :D... except for the flying , we 3 enjoyed it to the fullest !!!!

Many changes happened in my own family , but as the saying goes " The Will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you " God has been kind to us all through .

How can I not sing my fav hymn ..

"Great is thy Faithfulness O Lord my Father ...
There is no shadow of turning with thee ..
Thou changest not thy compassions they fail not ..
As thou has been forever will be .. "


I'm so looking forward to celebrating Christmas & my little one's 2nd birthday with my near and dear ones .. Thanking God for giving me the best gift ever in the form of reen :).. love u dearie .. And awaiting the New Year with a sparkle in my mind :) ...